When you have a problem with alcohol or drugs, your thinking is impaired. You make stupid choices. They call it "stinkin' thinking" in AA.
I do not say that as a criticism. I say it because it's the truth. I know - I'm an alcoholic. I don't drink any more but I still go to the meetings.
There is a saying in Alcoholics Anonymous that if you are still using and you think something is a good idea, you probably ought to do the opposite.
If you are still drinking or drugging, I've got some advice for you: Be very careful about the decisions you make. You could be digging the ditch deeper and making your bed harder. The best advice I could give you would be to find a chapter of AA or NA and pick up a "desire chip."